I promised Chinese

I promised Bella that I would tell her "I love you" in Chinese. So here goes.

Ngo Oi Nai/Lai is in Cantonese

Wo Ai Ne/Nee is in Mandarin

But whatever language I say it in, words can never match the feeling I have for her in my heart.

Michael

I feel so shit

I am having such a bad hangover. My uncles funeral was yesterday and he's friends had a party for him afterwards. The beer was for free - but I'm paying for it today. It was great meeting all my relatives and Robert's (strange) friends though. 

I don't know what to do with myself today. The sun is shining and this apartment is so so hot. I can't go back to sleep. And I can't see myself go out in the sun. I feel so shit. I just want to lie in my baby's bedroom with the air condition on. 

3 days to go. Yippie!

Bella

4 days

I am so excited that Bella will be here in 4 days. The last few days I have been ill with a cold and stuck at home. It is so so boring. I watched a lot of Sex and the city episodes.

I feel alot better today. I think I will go to the beach and see my friends.

This time that me and Bella have been apart has been way too long, it has been so hard. I never want us to be apart this long again. My heart aches too much. I hope these 4 days go really fast.

Michael

... yey yey

I am so happy! 1 week till I see my baby! I'm sure this week is gonna be great and pass quickly. Woho yippie yey yey!

Bella

1 Week, Yippie!

I haven't seen my baby for 3 weeks, and it is so so hard. I just want to hold her in my arms and kiss her soft lips. She has really become my other half and everything seems kind of pointless without her. She is my lover, my partner, my soul mate and my best friend, and to be without all of these, feels like my life is not running properly.

It is such nice weather here. I think I will go to the beach after work and swim in the Sea. In 4 months we are gonna be in India, that is gonna be amazing, and we are gonna see so many of our friends again.

Michael

Meatballs and herring

I went to our summer house this weekend. It was great! I have been so tired since last week. My body is just not with me, I don't know what's wrong. I slept so much all weekend, but I don't have much energy anyway. Yesterday Jo, Dave, Hillevi and Nick came to the summer house for lunch. We had this special Swedish midsummer lunch (even if it's not midsummer yet). Herring, potatoes, Janson's temptation, meatballs ...  And snaps of course. 

Today it's a new week - my last here in Stockholm for a while. It feels strange. I am both happy and sad. Happy because I am gonna see my baby in 8 days and be with him for almost all summer. And sad because it's my last week at uni. I am gonna miss my classmates so much. They all are fantastic! It's just a shame that they are gonna be gone when I'm coming back after my year off!

Bella

I slept so shit

I slept so shit last night. And if Bella was in my bed, I would have slept so much better. Also whoever thinks that green tea does not have caffiene in it, think again. Just 9 days to go, I hope they go really quickly. The weekends are the worst, so much time to be free, but I only want to be free with my baby.

Please go quickly!

Michael

Good morning my gorgeous baby

Every morning, just when I wake up, I grab my phone and call Michael. And I hear: Good morning my gorgeous baby! It's the best start of the day. I'm always so happy to hear his voice. We speak at least three times every day, but the morning call is the best. Cause then I have not hear his voice for hours and hours. 

Happy Bella

10 1/2 days to go

My baby will be here very soon, and I am so excited. And soon after we will be together in Sweden as well. And after that amazing India. But it doesnt matter where we are, as long as we are together.

These past few weeks have been really hard without Bella, and she has been working so hard at Uni, I am so proud of her. She doesnt realise how much.

I am so lucky that I found Bella, she so completes me.

Michael

Children of the sky

I am listening to Bob Sinclaire and thinking about India. I can't wait till we go there! I'm so excited. Let's dance! 

Bella

Uni vs wedding

It's 11 pm and I am still in school. I'm so exhausted. I wish I was in Israel now, with my baby, at Dave and Noa's wedding! I think they are having a great time. But I don't. 

Bella

Spoon please

I just woke up and called Bella. I drunk alot yesterday. Its 3 am here and I am gonna go back to sleep. I wish Bella was in my bed so I could spoon her, I love her so much.

Michael

Half-time

Two weeks to go. Yippie yey! I have so much to do at school at the moment. I was here till late evening yesterday and today I started at 8:30. We are working with a magazine, and this week we do all layout. We are gonna send it to the printer on Thursday, so everything has to be done till then. 

I'm so happy that the time goes by and that I'm going to Michael very soon. It's so hard to be apart. I am just so lucky that I've found him!

Bella

Time goes by

Sometimes it feels like time is moving fast and sometimes really slow. I came back from the Dead Sea last night. I had a great time, but its just not the same without Bella. When you have someone so special and amazing in your life to share with, you want to share every experience with them. And when you cant, it just seems wrong.

16 days to go, I hope they go quickly.

The sun is shining and it is giving me great energy. I have alot to do this week, and I feel it is gonna be a great week.

Michael

Friday night

My baby is in The Dead Sea. I so wish I was there too. I miss Michael so much! Specially now when it's weekend. I'm at home, doing nothing. Just waiting. I so hope the two and a half weeks till I go to Israel will go quickly!

Bella

I will have to make up for all photos ...

... so here is some text.

Today it's one week since Michael left Sweden but it feels like one month. Life is not the same without him. I'm glad I have much to do at uni cause otherwise it would have been so much harder. But in one way I wish I had less to do, so I could go to Israel before the third of June. I'm so sad that I'm gonna miss Dave and Noa's wedding text Thursday. It's a shame that I won't be able to celebrate with them! But I hope Michael is making up for us both. I really can't go to Israel earlier cause my uncle Robert's funeral is gonna be in the end of May, and I really want to be there. It's important for my little cousin Lisa.

I miss Michael like crazy. But I know that we are gonna have the most amazing time when I get there. That's why I can be here and go to school every day with a smile. I really can't wait! I'm so lucky that I've found him. I really hope that everyone will experience this kind of love in life.

Bella

In 3 weeks can we take photos like this ...

... at the beach in Tel Aviv!

3 Weeks to go

I feel really good this morning. Only 3 weeks to go till Bella gets here. I really miss her, but a quarter of the time has gone and I know the rest will go quickly. She is so beautiful to me, she completes me.

The last few days have been hard, but everything now is getting easier. The sun is shining, business is really good and I'm going to the Dead Sea this weekend, where I will see alot of my friends and relax.

Michael

Big smile for my baby

Nirvana

I woke up today with a big hangover. I never once got a hangover in Sweden when I woke up with my baby Bella. There are so many things that are different when you do them alone. 24 days does not seem alot, but when you're counting them hour by hour it seems like eternity. I enjoy going to bed, knowing that when I wake up it will be 1 day less. When I wake without seeing Bella's smile it makes the sun shine a little bit less.

But enough moaning, I should be celebrating that I am in an amazing relationship with the greatest, most beautiful, most loving, most clever, kindest (this list could go on and on) person on the planet. And I really am happy, and everyone sees it, and I wish that everyone can have an amazing relationship like us, I hope everyone finds or has found their other half. And I hope that everyone feels this deep, overwhelming feeling of intense love. Because this is Nirvana!

Michael

We look very happy together

Last Friday was my baby here, but this Friday I'm sitting here eating dinner all alone. I hate this. But what I like is what my friend Julia told me today. She thinks Michael is amazing and said that we look very very happy together. I know Michael is amazing and that we are a great couple, but I love to hear it from friends and family.

Bella

Kom hem nu

I've come back to Israel in such a joyous time, because its Israel's 60th birthday. But because my lover, best friend and soul mate is not here, I dont feel complete.

So I go to many parties, but its not the same cause I have a pining in my heart for my baby Bella.

I cant wait till we live together forever. It just feels so right, but these are words and words could never describe that feeling inside.

And I thank God for blessing me to be the happiest and luckiest guy on this planet.

Kom hem nu.

Michael

26

I'm up early because I'm going to school in about 20 minutes. But the only thing I think about is that it's only 26 days till I'm going to Israel. Yippie yey!

Bella

Don't be afraid, you have just got your eyes closed

I didn't sleep well at all last night. And it was so strange to wake up without Michael in bed this morning. I hate this feeling of loneliness. I want my baby here, he completes me. I don't know how we are gonna make the 4 weeks ...

Bella 

I am at home, but home is not home without my baby Bella. I had such an amazing time with her. I know we will be together forever. I love her so much! Her family made me feel really welcome and it was great meeting her other sister Linn and Stefan. They make an amazing family. Now I have to wait 4 weeks for my baby to come out here.

My bed will feel so empty tonight, I cant put into words my feeling for her. I am such a lucky person that I have found someone like Bella. Its going to be a very hard 4 weeks, but I know that she needs to finish uni well. I will always be here for her.

Michael

Unhappy Michael in the taxi this morning

Unhappy Lisa at the fairground

Please stay here

We are having an amazing time together and I so don't want Michael to leave tomorrow. It's gonna be so so so empty. 

Bella

Puss puss

There can be miracles when you believe ...

It's Friday afternoon and Michael is having a kip. I love having him here in Sweden, it's gonna be so hard when he's leaving. We are getting more close to each other every day and it's just amazing. Yesterday and the day before we were in our summerhouse, in the archipelago of Stockholm. It was really nice. We had dinner with my mum and dad and got quite drunk. Last night we went for dinner to an Italian with my sister Jo. Michael got his lamb and was very happy. 

We are having such a great time here in Stockholm together. I'm so happy. Tonight we are having dinner at our place with some friends and tomorrow we are going for dinner at my sister's. But first, in the day, we are gonna take my cousin Lisa to a fairground. I'm so looking forward to it! 

Bella